Bed rests...

It had been very hectic for the past few days. Meetings and entertainment with potential big biz partner, and also the normal taking care of Aloysius' needs in the morning before rushing out. It's really an eye-opener to be able to sit in meetings between CEOs and big investors. Their way of doing business is very different. In the beginning, the conversations were about who is more "powerful" and richer than who. hahaha... Can listened till jaw-drop! Network is very very important if one wants to be very successful in business. I also got a chance to have tea at Tower Club after our lunch at Mezza9. We met Michael Mar, the owner of Indo-Chine there. The restroom there is also different. I was impressed. Every cubicle has a wash-hand basin and a huge mirror. There are also individually, nicely folded cotton hand towels for use, and also a big bottle of mouth-wash. It's quite an experience the last few days to clinch the business deal. Very successful business people really make big decisions on the spot. Imagine the signing of a SGD7million deal within just 2 days. Maybe I am "mountain tortoise", never seen such big deals that can be settled in just 2 days. And best of all, one trip settles a few business deals. hmm... I think I gotta learn to reach that pace.

My sis even got the opportunity to have dinner at One Degree with the owner of Nirwana Gardens Resort. The owner, Mr. Frans, is the nephew of the richest man in Indonesia, Mr. Lee! I did not go for the dinner though... My body is telling me to rest already.

Now, I am stuck in bed. Yesterday morning, I rushed to take a train, then stood all the way in the crowded train. When I reached my destination, I started to bleed when I went to the toilet :( I hoped for the best and slowed down my pace, and talked to my babies. The bleeding stopped. It started again in the late afternoon. Since the important meetings had finished, I decided to take a cab to Gleneagles to see Dr. Chew. I told my hubby that I can go and see Dr. Chew on my own since he's busy at work.

I gotta wait for a while for my turn. During the wait, I did not feel anything. IS it just denial of feeling my feelings? Maybe... Dr. Chew did a scan. He told me that my womb is weak from my medical history, and it gotta support two babies now. There are two heartbeats. It took him a while to find the second heartbeat. That gave me a fright. Then he told me one water sac looks normal, and the other is a bit big whereas the foetus is still small :(. He told me to prepare for the worst :( sobs... He said that hopefully if one is unhealthy, it better be absorbed by the other so that there will not be complications and be left with one. Why are doctors so negative? I'd rather he dun tell me the negative part. I am trying to stay positive, and perhaps that has masked my true feelings. Or maybe I am too busy to feel my feelings. I felt sad and wanna cry this morning when I'm alone. HOpefully I wun get too paranoid. Doc asked me to be hospitalised for two days, so that I dun have to walk too much, not even to the toilets. He said till like I should not be walking at all. Gosh... I rejected that. I think I will be more in peace at home. I was given a jab to relax the womb. That hurts a lot. I forgot to ask doc how many days of bed rest. I will be seeing him again next Wed. Cannot be resting in bed for so many days rite... :( This weekend gonna be a stay-in-bed weekend...

I should not be giving up yet. I gotta keep talking to my babies inside to ask them to grow up healthily.


Babies, babies, please grow up healthy.
Daddy, mommy and brother love you.
We are hoping very much to see you.
Babies, babies, you have super power.
Use your super power to grow up healthy and be born smoothly.
Daddy, mommy and brother love you both...


Okie, gotta stop here... Will continue to read Shichida's book on "tai jiao" and another book titled "The Secret".