Insomnia?
I cannot sleep well these few nites. I gotta make a decision if I wanna continue with my PhD dissertation. After months of thinking and weeks of sleepless nites, I have decided to withdraw my registration for the PhD. It’s draining my energy and wealth. If I were to go to UK for a month to finish it up, I will be under lots of stress and it will not be good for the babies. I am very tired of it all. Yes, I came this far. I had also lost “friends” when I had 50% decided to give it up, even the very good “friends”. Well, all the experiences that I had along the way had made me a stronger person. I even have a professor who is "afraid" that I will be his colleague next time and was terribly good to me and kept in contact with me whenever there's opportunity. hahaha... I am a person who does not make a lot of friends easily, and I will certainly value the friendships with my friends when I have decided to have them as my friends. I was very sad about that initially. I gotta accept it afterall, cos I cannot change their values and their perceptions, can I? Have I been naive in this realistic world? Maybe... Putting these aside... My friends will still be my friends in my heart :).
Hmm… probably when I have more time and a stable huge income, I will think about the experimental results that I have. Probably will publish them in prestigious international journal ;) I have very interesting experimental results ok… Not many will do them cos it’s costly that involved lots of hard work and skills too… and also involved environmental and safety issues… *wink* *wink* Many will be interested in my work cos it’s real, not stimulation by the super computers :).