Bernice and Charlene are 1 month old!

We celebrated Bernice’s and Charlene’s full month yesterday afternoon. We did not invite many people as compared to Aloysius’ full month celebration. It was very tiring when we had Aloysius’ full month celebration, so we decided not to invite too many. We ordered the buffet from Purple Sage. The table set-up was ready at 10am. And the food was ready by 10.30am. We did not take many photos though. The moments will be remembered in our heart :). Just like what Harv Eker mentioned. He shared with us a story on how he missed the precious moments of his daughter’s graduation ceremony when he was busy capturing the event with a video camera. Hmm… It’s quite true, I feel. Sometimes, when Aloysius was in a very happy mood and kept smiling, singing and dancing, when I took out the camera, the happiness is kinda broken. I do not know if it feels the same to you…

When we were busy preparing, our neighbour gave Aloysius a piece of chocolate :(. It’s quite sweet. My sister put it into her mouth when she saw. Hahaha… He had a small bite of the chocolate though. I do not want him to have food with sugar and preservatives. At least my sis now understands why I do not like him to be fed food with high sugar and preservatives. She’s a graduate in psychology and she’s quite particular of childhood learning abilities. Then at the buffet, to my dismay, he was fed with cakes and ribena behind my back :(. I already closed one eye when he was fed with the cake. I started to feel very angry. I told them not to feed him ribena, but they continued when I walked away. Why do they wanna do that? They knew very well that I do not want Aloysius to drink anything with sugar. Turned Aloysius to face the wall and feed? Am I dumb? The function room is small, and I could still see, and I am not dumb. Haiz… I suddenly felt very sad why I cannot take good care of Aloysius anymore :(. I felt so helpless and at the same time, tired. I am hoping things will get better when the maid arrives. I want to take good care of my ABC myself, at least in their first 3 years. The first 3 years is very critical in their development. I do not think I can trust the doting grandparents. I want my kids to be close to their grandparents, but their love for them will just make them do things that will make me angry. How? We have different opinions in child raising and their diet. I do not believe in sweets, canned drinks, packet drinks, Ribena, processed food, titbits for my kids, but the grandparents do. When a little bit can become a lot without their realization… Sugar and preservatives can cause behaviour problems and also learning abilities in kids. How I wish I am a superwoman! Anyone can give me the power to be a superwoman? ;)

Inaugaral outing with ABC!

Yesterday was Bernice’s and Charlene’s first outing, together with Aloysius. We went to Mt. E to see a cardiac surgeon for my dad. There were 6 adults handling my ABC :). All of us went into the consultation room. As usual, Aloysius was very curious. There’s a wash hand basin in the consultation room, he wanted to wash his hands. There’s a fish tank with a few goldfishes which kept him amazed for a while, while we discussed with the doctor. The doctor was very patient and attention. He made us feel very comfortable with him. During the discussion, Bernice wanted milk. I breastfed her for a while. Aloysius walked around the consultation room. When we were done with the questions that we wanted to clarify, Charlene wanted milk. I latch her on in the sling. After talking to the nurse, we went for lunch at Paragon. I carried Charlene and my hubby carried Bernice while we ate. My mum fed Aloysius. After lunch, Aloysius went for lesson at Julia Gabriel with his daddy and the rest went home :). It was quite an easy outing though :) Maybe next time we will venture out longer with them. Some how, I think we will need a car already.

Peace for me...

Hello bloggers,

I am peacefully having my lunch now with some relaxing classical music :). Yummy… I just stirred fried rice with lots of sesame oil, ginger, garlic and pumpkin. It tastes quite good to me. Plus my mum’s 爱心 pork. She cooked for me in the morning in JB and asked my brother to bring it for me. I felt so loved by my mum and felt so touched today :). Hmm… Am I being emotional or what? Hee… Just now, I was thinking, what am I feeling. Somehow I felt angry that she’s not around to help me. On the other hand, I felt that my dad need her more than me. Then I thought about POV. From POV, I learnt that the elder child of the family will usually have “attention fight” with the daddy. Hmm… I cannot recall the exact word they use. The eldest child will usually fight for attention from the mommy since birth with the daddy, unless we are willing to heal and accept this. I am the eldest. Perhaps it’s in the subconscious or unconscious mind. I am seeing this in Aloysius and his daddy too. It’s shown in some of the actions they have. Think I have this challenge with my dad too. My mum gotta stay with my dad, cos there’s a risk that he will get heart attack anytime. And I am here having mixed feeling whether my mum should be helping me or my dad more. How to heal this part? I have no idea man… Maybe I will have to ask my sister who has gone through POV apprenticeship, and POV trainer to be.

Aloysius is in JB under the care of my mum and dad today. He was so happy last nite when we asked him if he wanna go to JB. He got lots of “ransack” and explore there, including escalating the window grilles to near the ceiling! Wow… practicing his motor skills eh? But it’s scary to us… hahaha…

I am home with Bernice and Charlene now. I am still coping well with them. They will just wake up to drink milk and sleep. But these few days, their waking hours is getting longer. I will try to do the balance activities recommended by Glen Doman with them. They wanted to be carried to fall asleep. I am really sorry that I gotta let them cry hard sometimes, cos I was busy. I am hoping that things will get better when my helper arrives. No, I am sure it will be better :).

Yesterday, I was home alone with all the 3 of them. I almost gone crazy in the afternoon after Aloysius woke up from his nap. Aloysius hurt his toe and was bleeding. He was crying very loudly and unconsoleably. I am wondering why his pain tolerance suddenly became so low. Attention seeking? Maybe… Or spoilt by the grandparents? Could be another reason too. Then Bernice and Charlene woke and cried for milk. I gotta feed them and entertain Aloysius to keep him happy. After the milk feed, I gotta prepare lunch for Aloysius and feed him. Bernice and Charlene decided that they wanna be carried to sleep and refused to lie on the bed. In the end, I gotta sling Charlene, carry Bernice on the other side, and preventing Aloysius from “ransacking” my kitchen. He was on the kitchen knife yesterday! It was madness. After ransacking my kitchen, Aloysius decided to climb and sit on the dining table to throw the things on the floor. ***faintz*** Finally, I managed to coax the gals to sleep in the cot. Then I prepared lunch for Aloysius. That was 3pm already :(. The gals were only willing to sleep in the cot for a few minutes. I gotta go in and out of the kitchen to carry and put them down again, and continue my food preparation. It was really tiring. Then Aloysius spit out his rice on the table and floor, and put out his hand to ask me to “beat beat”. ***faintz*** I did not beat him and did not say anything about it. And he stopped doing that. Phew… Then I continued to soothe the gals, carry and put down many times, and at the same time feeding Aloysius. Sweat… My home was like a war zone yesterday afternoon. Hahaha… My BIL came back early yesterday. Phew… he came back to help me to play with Aloysius, while I rest in bed. My legs and back were aching. He helped me to carry the gals for a while when they woke. Then Aloysius decided to climb on the bed to sleep beside me. When my parents came, he woke up and went to JB. What a day I had!

Today is more peaceful :) I was thinking how long can I last like this. Perhaps I will need a day off from the kids and have some time solely for myself once a month. I felt so imbalanced and deprived of my own time. I cannot even go to the toilet in peace sometimes. Okie dokie, I finished my yummy lunch. Gotta go and rest already. I am exhausted and aching all over again… Later gotta capture some nice photos of Bernice and Charlene to apply their passport. Kiko mat here I come… :)

About eggs. Eggs or egeless?

This is what I tried to translate from Prof. Shichida's book <<脑内食品卵磷脂>>

Eggs is worse than meat and dairy products. Eggs mainly consist of animal protein, better avoid eating. Eggs last time and now are different. The protein quality are different and has deteriorated. Chickens cannot survive in a natural environment now, and the considering the food fed to the chickens, the quality of the eggs are no good.
If kids eat egg everyday, kids will be uneasy and get angry easily. If stop eating eggs, these signs will go away.
According to an American research, it was reported that egg hinder a kids' IQ. This research found out from 600 mentally weak kids love to eat eggs. If a normal child eat more than 6 eggs a day, school results will deteriorate very fast.

Many chefs who often fry eggs, will have mentally instability or weird. Just breathing in the smoke from the frying eggs, will cause undesirable effect.
Egg white contains "ruan4 bai2 shu4 wu4 zhi4" (dunno what's that in English), when mixed with something in the human body, will cause problems in the nervous system or skin problems. Apart from these, although we still do not know exactly what is in the eggs that can cause brain nervous system breakdown, the increase in people with mental illness is in line with the increase in consumption of eggs. Eggs is also a cause of allergy. The protein in egg white is the same as the protein in cow's products which is very small in size, which can be absorbed into the bloodstream, hence causing allergy.
Kids with middle ear infection, most of them eat eggs daily.


Disclaimer: The benefits of eggs is controversial. You choose what you believe ya?

How are we coping?

Hello bloggers,

Maybe you are wondering how are we coping with the 2 gals and Aloysius. Well, so far so good. Things got better with the kids. The gals will usually drink milk and sleep most of the times. Over these few days, both of them wanna be carried for a while in the evening. I have started some of the balance activities from Glen Doman program from "How smart is your baby", whenever there's opportunity and I have the time.

I had a few hours taste of home alone with 2 babies and 1 toddler last nite! I also had a taste of comforting 3 of them, all at the same time. Imagine having to feed both Bernice and Charlene at the same time, and patting Aloysius to sleep. Phew... Too bad, my hubby was in a bad mood, and all 3 cried togather. My hubby was tired after looking after Aloysius for the day, hence in a very bad mood when Aloysius started to cry for no apparent reason. Aloysius seems to be at a stage of when he cries, he will cry as loud as possible. hmm... Probably will try to "correct" that behaviour. Will have to read up on that. I guess it's partly attention seeking too. It was the first time he's crying for "no reason". I suddenly felt like I do not understand him. Nevertheless, I stayed calm and looked at him when he cried till he stopped. After he stopped, he lay down beside me and slept. Could it be because he's tired too? Dr. Sears mentioned some where in his "The good behaviour book" that the worst time and most ill-discipline time is when the parents are tired. hmm... quite true to a large extent.

If it's not attention seeking, it's could be that he has superb ESP. At that moment, I received a phone call from my sister that the hospital called that my dad could not breath. My sis told me that my dad was gasping for oxygen, shivering and sweating all over :( Aloysius is pretty close to my mom and my dad. Perhaps, he could sense something there. At one point before he fell asleep, he told me "por por" :( I could only tell him that "por por" is in JB, looking after "gong gong".

This morning, I am going to be home alone with my A, B, C again till my MIL comes in the afternoon. Fingers and toes crossed that I will make it, ya? :) I am imagining that I should make it. B and C usually sleep a lot in the morning. I will just boil lotus root soup for mine and Aloysius' lunch. If I have some time, probably I will stir fry some vegetable for both of us. hmm... should I let Aloysius self-feed? Perhaps... I am afraid of the mess though. However, he gotta start learning how to self-feed. The more he practice, the more perfect he will get. It gotta start somewhere. I just read from Shichida's book that self-feeding and discipline during feeding is a start to independence and discipline in future.

Okie dokie, I better go and rest more now. Later...

Abstract Art by Aloysius?

Aloysius loves to "play" with my camera. He's done with exploring the lens, menu, buttons, zoom. He's now into the viewfinder, replay, and the capture button. Here's a photo of his work :)





Aloysius will "write" or "draw" occasionally on his doodle pad. So far, I have been teaching him how to hold a pen or pencil properly. It's not easy though. This is a picture that he has drawn. What does it look like?

My A, B, C :)

I finally got some time now. Aloysius is in JB with my parents. I am home alone with the two gals. And they are sleeping now. Things are getting better and better by the days :) The first two nights home from hospital was very stressful and tiring. Luckily, Aloysius was in JB then. Really thank my parents for bringing Aloysius back to JB. For some reasons, the gals could not sleep and we did not know what they needed. They just kept crying the whole night. For a while, I thought, was it because I had done something not so right during pregnancy. I told myself that situation will get better and better. I also apologized to the gals if I had hurt their feelings and causing insecurity in them while they were in my tummy. Prof Shichida states in his book that babies who cry for no reason at night are insecured and emotionally hurt during pregnancy. To “cure” this, I gotta apologise and hug them. So, I did. Luckily things got better on the third day when Aloysius came back. The gals finally started to sleep soundly at night, and only waking up for feeds. On the first nite with 2 babies and a toddler in the room, it was a bit challenging. When the babies cry, Aloysius woke up as well. After a couple of days, things settled down again. We can sleep peacefully at night again :) My hubby and I tried looking after 3 for a day on our own. It was good :). My hubby still could manage to clear the storeroom. Phew…

Aloysius was a very happy boy ever since we came back from hospital with his two sisters :). Till today, he’s still a very happy boy. He will explore whatever he wants, except his toys. Hahaha… He loves the kitchen and my wardrobe. Nowadays, he will go to the bookshelf to take out some books to flip too :) I felt guilty at times cos I have not got the energy to read properly to him for a few weeks already. I started with his flashcards already. I did flashcards sessions 3 times last week. I will have to change some of the speed reading cards and the categories before showing them to him again. My hubby bought him a set of 28 pieces puzzles. He’s enjoying the puzzles too :) Recently, he got bored of his little touch leappad already. Perhaps, time to open up more leappad stories for him.

The gals are doing very well. I am very happy about that. They were classified as “a little premature” by the PD. They are jaundiced free, which I am very proud of :). The nurse at the hospital told me all babies will get jaundice and it’s normal. Hmm… It’s more like “it’s common” than “it’s normal”. Jaundice in babies is not very common last time. It’s another long story what I do to get them to be jaundice free. They are growing very well, and drinking well too. So far, no vomiting at all after milk feeds. I am 100% breastfeeding them and I latch on. I seldom burp them also cos I think latch on should not cause a lot of wind, and not much time to burp also.

At 3 weeks’ old, both Bernice and Charlene can flip from tummy to back. They can turn their head left and right while sleeping on their tummy. And they are crawling too! The distance that they can crawl is getting longer by the days. It’s unbelievable!

Another unbelievable thing which I do not know whether to believe or not. Charlene can see outline at about 10 days old! My BIL carried her and move his head left and right. He reported that Charlene’s eyes followed his head left and right. Wow! Bernice can see outline at 3 weeks’ old. I moved my hand in front of her. She moved her eyes to follow my hand. They have been looking at the checker boards during their waking hours since they got home from the hospital. Hmm... According to Glen Doman, the eye sight grows by use. The brain also grows by use. Perhaps the checker boards did help. They love to stare at the checker boards though. I will be starting with the solid shapes soon. Need to spend some time to dig them out from the storeroom.

Arrival of the twins!

Hello bloggers,

I would like to announce the arrival of my twin gals on 26 Mar '08 - Bernice and Charlene! They are both very healthy and 11 days old now.

Here's my long long long story...
I went for my weekly check-up after attending Julia Gabriel class with Aloysius. My blood pressure went up to a "dangerous" level. It has been going up for the last 2 weeks since Aloysius fell sick and I also got the flu virus from him. Everyone was sick in the family. I gotta look after Aloysius on my own too, cos my mum went for a tour at that time. It was indeed quite a tiring and stressful few weeks. hmm... Doc prescribed medication for me to lower the blood pressure, but I did not take them :P. After the check-up, doc wanted me to get admitted for blood pressure monitoring through the night, and c-section the next day at 4.30pm. We were not really prepared. The twins were only 36+ weeks, Aloysius was still having cough, and I was still coughing too. Doc said the risk of me getting pneumonia is lesser than the lives of the twins. If my blood pressure do go above 150/100mmHg, even if it's midnight, Dr. Chew will have to perform the c-section to take them out immediately. I was like... wah... that serious ah... When I was admitted, my blood pressure hovers around 145/95mmHg. I waited a few hours for my sis to arrive with Indinine and Vplus. I started to take 2 Indinine and a handful of Vplus every two hours. Let me tell you... Indinine and Vplus worked! In the morning, my blood pressure went down to normal around 110/70mmHg. I was hoping to be discharged and postpone the c-section when doc came in the morning. But he did not want me to take the risk. So c-section still scheduled at 4.30pm on 26 Mar 08, after my doc finished his meeting.
Tell you a secret... kekeke... Dun scold me also ok? Promise? hahaha... I was prescribed stronger pills for lowering the blood pressure to take for the night. I did not consume any! hee... I thought, well, I was already hospitalised, and doc was prepared to deliver my babies anytime, so just take Indinine and Vplus :) Indinine can help in lessening the pain in post surgery too. I had taken lots of medications for this pregnancy as compared to when I was pregnant with Aloysius. I felt like a drug addict at some point that I had to take Ventolin religiously to prevent premature contractions. When I got busy with things and with Aloysius, I get frequent contractions which I gotta take Ventolin to make them subside.
The wait was very boring. I wanted to go for a walk, but was forbidden to get down the bed, just in case my blood pressure shoot up again :(. Sobs... Cannot go "pak tor" with hubby. But at least I still can go for a nice and warm shower :) I was suppose to stop eating by 10am. kekeke... I continued my Indinine - 2 Indinine every 2 hours ;) I was afraid of the pain the moment I wake up after surgery. The last time, I needed the maximum dose of morphine and was on morphine drip. Even the anaesthetist thought I was a drug addict before. hahaha... hmm... yes.. I was on painkiller for years when I was still in school. Painkiller drug addict, I was.
Terence and I decided to take some photos during the wait. We were figuring out how to put on the timer to take a picture togather. hahaha... suddenly, I felt Bernice's violent kicks and punches. The next minute I know, I felt a gush of water coming out. The waterbag burst! hmm... The gals have selected the best time they wanna come out. The night before, I was telling them that doc had scheduled them to be born at 4.30pm, and if they do not like the timing, they can choose the timing by breaking the waterbag. hmm... Does "tai jiao" really work? I guess so... :) Thank you gals for telling mommy what time you wanna be born... We did not manage to capture any photos. Everything happened so fast after that. Terence went to inform the nurse. Doc wanted immediate c-section. Guess he came out from his meeting halfway... 3 nurses came to help me to clean up and get ready to go to the OT. The staffs at Gleneagles really work very fast indeed. My anaesthetist was already waiting at the door. He reminded the nurse to inform the PD to standby "becos it's twins". hmm... twins that high risk of having problems meh? My doc was the last to arrive. The twins were born within half an hour after the whole episode of the breakage of the waterbag.

This time round, I did not wake up in excruciating pain as compared to the last two surgeries. Probably it's becos I took enough Indinine before the surgery. Remember, I still took 2 every 2 hours even after I was not supposed to be eating anymore :). I only needed Pethidine painkiller instead of the morphine last time. The last time during Aloysius' birth, I only ate 4 Indinine 8 hours before the surgery, and Pethidine was not good enough. This time, it could also be because I am "healthier" internally after 2+ years of taking 2 Indinine and 80 Vplus a day. This, I must thank my hubby for paying for all these supplements for me :) I could see lots of improvement in my health from the iris scan too.

After the painkiller drip was removed, the nurses kept on tempting me to take oral painkiller, which I rejected :) I took 2 Indinine and a handful of Vplus every 3 hours for the next few days.